It hurts so badly. Yesterday was terrible. I lost something I love forever. It's gone. Forever. I know I wont be able to say goodbye to it for a long time though, and that hurts more. I never wanted to know this kind of pain and I never thought I would have to experince it. I thought I was smarter than that. I thought this only happened to girls who didn't know what they were getting into. But I knew. I knew this was going to be good, and it was for 2 years. The last month though, it didn't mean anything. I tried for nothing. I loved and wasn't loved back. I can't wrap my mind around it. My heart beats so fast, my body get so warm with frustration and heartbreak, and my hands tremble.
I ran away, I cried, I screamed why. I still don't know how this all happened. What made him love me less because of her?
I'll add another scar. The one thing I can smile a little about is that I know my scars have made me stronger. I'm going to keep praying for strength like Peter.
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