Dawn is Approaching.

It's one in the morning. Shane has fallen fast to sleep already and I cant seem to get my mind to slow down enough to join him. Lucky dog.

The past week has been full of new things. Things to reflect on mainly. I've learned I'm starving for God. I haven't thought that recently and thinking it now makes me sad I wasn't in the past. I've lost something good in my life in the past week. Losing that made me realize how hungry I am to seek the Lord more. A friend told me something cliche, but I took him seriously: "Let Jesus be your boyfriend." Like he said, very cliche, but He's really the only person I want to be in a relationship with right now. We have lots of catching up to do. I've missed God and it hurts my heart everytime I admit it. It hurts more when I tell Him.
Have you ever realized how important something is to you right before you loose it? Ugh, it stinks. It stinks to know you almost let that something slip away completely. But now that you've realized it you hold onto it tighter than you have before. You crave that something right before you go to bed and wake up craving it in the morning. That's me and Jesus right now. Man, I've missed that feeling. I've had feelings like this, but with people. Having it with Jesus is such a better feeling. It makes me want to fall asleep faster so I can wake up sooner. Obviously that's not happening right now since I'm doing this... haha. But I do miss Jesus right now. Saying that made me smile. :)

I was walking Shane the other day and I noticed this tree and it had lost all of its leafs. I thought to myself, "this tree had leafs like three days ago! how'd they go so fast?" Then I realized everything goes so fast. I took a deep breath, exhaled, and continued to walk Shane. I do this everytime I see this tree.

My advice for the moment: have moments of quiet with yourself often. They're wonderful. I hadn't had one in forever it seemed like, but taking one the other night was so refreshing. Refreshing is a good word.

I am being refreshed. Deep breath, exhale, sleep.